Thirty-three

On turning thirty-three biologically (well, you know how it is with official document -> doesn’t align with actual birthday -> typical South Asian culture when I grew up in Nepal). Over the years – accumulated via struggles, crisis, healing and in between of small moments in life – I think these things have helped me to get things in life…I would not say “sorted out”, but I think at 33 I have found few things that has struck a chord in my heart and “being” in general. Might probably sounds cliche…


  1. Practicing mindfulness smoothes out the rough surface area of life.
  2. Mind your breath. When in doubt, take a long deep breath and feel your breath. It’s right now, right this moment that matters. Take a long deep breath. Beware of your reality. Again.
  3. Meditation, every now and then. Could be walking hours. Could be at workspace. A dedicated schedule. Feeling yourself, your thoughts, body, mind… and the world… everything in between.
  4. Journal your thoughts. No matter how small, how big. Crisis. Poetic. Gratitude. Suffering. Sadness. Laughter. Anything. Gives you clarity.
  5. Track your expenses. Has helped me optimize my financial decisions in life.
  6. Eat healthy. Getting in that “rainbow spectrum” helps you get so many things into your physical system -> directly connects to your mental being.
  7. Exercise. Move. Yoga. Running. Walks, short or long. Stretches. Crunches. Pushups. Pullups. Planks. Whatever you can do: just do it!
  8. Crisis in, crisis out. Existential crises are here to stay. (See: [[2023: A life in transition, same yet different]])
  9. Observe and introspect your thoughts and actions. Helps you understand your biases and the unintended actions you exhibit on the external world.
  10. Don’t hesitate to apologize whenever you feel you fucked it up.
  11. Speak your heart out. Every time you get an opportunity.
  12. Gratitude healing. Close your eyes, think about things you’re grateful for. Anything. Right this moment, whatever you think of.
  13. Manage your responsibilities, everywhere. Family. Friends. Colleagues. Managers. Organization. Relationship.
  14. Adulthood and aloneness. Loneliness. It keeps on deepening unless you work on your relationships with people. (I suck at this deeply!)
  15. Reach out first. Don’t wait to be asked how you’ve been. Everyone is waiting for the same text.
  16. Having a pet helps you understand “unconditional love” so much. I love my cat, Nessa! She’s a cute little girl… :)
  17. Let go of your past self, but do understand your roots. You are what you were conditioned in the past. It’s okay to feel deeply sad sometimes.
  18. Sometimes “the past” comes haunting you in the moments you are so vulnerable.
  19. Be proud of your past self. All the hardships and difficulties, and suffering. It only made you stronger… 🌻 :)
  20. It’s okay to feel vulnerable. Vulnerability is what makes you grounded to your “self”.
  21. Trade the transactional for the Deep and the Meaningful.
  22. It’s okay to feel that life is inconsequential. It’s okay to feel like nothing matters really. But look at yourself, your past, the things you are connected to in life… (See: [[Life: Struggle, Absurdity and Happiness]])
  23. Nobody is coming to save you. Everyone is deep in their own shit. Your own actualizations are the only rescue that’s ever shown up.
  24. Don’t hesitate to update your priors and beliefs. Keep learning. Keep growing.
  25. Zoom out. Watch the birds. Look at the sky, the clouds, the stars, the eclipse. Your inner self. The external factors. Everything. The insignificance makes you feel alive perhaps.
  26. Cleaning is therapeutic. Cleaning the house, physical space… digital space… everything. Heals mind and body.
  27. Work doesn’t define your “self.” You will burn out treating a job like your identity. And when you do, say it out loud: to your manager, to your friends, in writing…
  28. Reformulate your issues, if things are not working out.
  29. Fall in love. With someone. With yourself. With the world. With everything. Awe-ism.
  30. Understand impermanence. Anicca. Gives you perspective about your own issues, suffering, happiness – and that of the world… everything. (See: [[Vipassana Re-treat]], [[Vipassana Retreat II]], [[Attachments to desires]])
  31. Make things. Build things. Art. Poetry. Music. Prose. Creative freedom helps you express yourself.
  32. It’s okay to seek help. Ask whenever you can…
  33. Birthdays. New years… are just checkpoints, not the absolute milestones. You have your own pace. But just keep going! (See: [[About Time, Life and Values]])

Metta! ❤️ 🌻